A heart like yours

A heart like yours,

It'll get you in trouble.

Too gorgeous for this world

A heart like yours will bleed whilst due;

And whilst it's not.

You'll still bleed, 

All too good for this.

A heart like yours will see you through,

See right through mere flesh and flukes.

Even though just a flicker of life,

You reigned your Kingdom's light.

A sound like that wears a crown of jewels. 

Until Your Heart beats true.

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So, 

That's been on my head for a day now, 

It's what happens when you have nights where spontaneity shocks the shit out if you. 

It's 11:44pm, 

Today has been alright,

Though this week seems to be dragging like the ass of my chihuahua when he didn't give two fks about moving or walking.

I had a beautiful new-ish friend surprise the hell out of me and was totally in awe.

Been keeping busy and just ready for a holiday.

That's it for me tonight

Bedtime Belly Buster - Day 1

1 Scoop Isapro
1 Scoop Want More Energy

Tastes like a non alcoholic cocktail but it's gonna take a bit of time to get used to it.
Just like anything else really.

Today is Day 11 of my 2nd 30 day cleanse,
I have alot more energy.

Some personal things have happened but physically, I'm doing great.
Yes, I still get tired sometimes, just like everyone else but my endurance to keep going
is quite surprising these days.

So, at the moment I'm 84.8kg
That's pretty amazing in itself.
6kg down. What a freakin achievement.

So much energy!

Okay, well not now but a few minutes ago I was able to burn alot of calories even when
I thought I didn't have anymore energy for the day after work.
I managed to do 45 mins on the bike
and then 17 mins on the treadmill.

This morning I weighed in at 85.4kg
That's better then being on the verge of 90kg by a long mile!

My concentration has improved massively, I thought I'd never get my focus and concentration
back after the cancer. I can now read paperback books, which I haven't been able to do for over a year.

That's exciting!

Anyways, I've lost count of what day it is now. So stay tuned!

Day 6 - 21/9/14

Day 3 was my cleanse day and it went PERFECTLY, so much better if you keep yourself distracted
but not too distracted. Enough to keep your mind off food.

I followed the program to a T
and was so proud.

I felt even better when I weighed myself the next day and I was 85kg! That's 5kg!
Photo up soon!

Day 1 of 30 days

Today I started my second round of 30 day cleanse,
I am more prepared this time with more snacks and now more knowledge about how to prepare
for shake and cleanse days.

I have more energy than I have in a very long time,
Possibly even before the cancer, well, I definately haven't felt this energetic since before
the cancer or chemo.

My favourite products are the Ionix Supreme and definately the shakes,
I love the support I get on social media, encouraging me and always on my side.

I don't think I could have asked for a better weight loss system.

:D

My Why and Another 30 days

After gaining the results I've gotten after my first 30 days,
I've decided to do another 30 days, starting from next week but I've been drinking
the shakes and stuff because I love them and they're better then Up n Go's in the morning
anyways.

They burn fat and build muscle at the same time, I don't think Up n Go's do that.

So far I've lost up to 5kg, my weight has been yo-yo'ing for the last week or so but my measurements continue to keep decreasing pretty much everytime I measure myself, which is great.

I'm gonna achieve my dream body, kick the asses of my ex's and make them regret they ever let me go.
Haha, seriously though I couldn't give a shit about any of em' anymore.

I just need to be healthy and sexy.

My 'Why'

So, WHY am I doing this? Why do I need to lose weight and why do I want it so bad?
It's quite simple really. And I had no choice in it but I want it REALLY bad.

I want kids, and the only way I'm gonna be able to have kids is to lose 10kg so I can get my eggs frozen,
because my left ovary was robbed by Satan via cancer but thankfully my right ovary is fine but I've decided to freeze my eggs because whether I have a man or not in my life in a few years, I still want the right to have kids. I've always wanted children and the Devil has already stolen so much away from me.

I'm not going to let him steal this away from me.
Not again.

So, Prof Ledger in Sydney said it would be really good to get good quality eggs instead of Quantity.
I would of loved heaps of eggs, but realistically, it's not gonna happen.
I have 12, I'd like to keep them all healthy.
And I want this.
It's simple.

That's my why, I want to be healthier, I want to be sexy and beautiful.
It's gonna happen. It's happening and I love it.
I love the program and the support I'm getting. I'm really excited about the opportunity and the
reality of results. It's great.

I can't wait to see what the next 30 days brings and hopefully I won't get hyper glycemia again
so I can stick to the plan and get greater results.
Unfortunately last time I had to slow down after day 10 but I still kept losing weight and it's been great.

Very excited.

Anyways, will post pictures again soon
Ciao

C

86.6kg!

So, it seems my Isagenix has worked really well,
I'm still losing weight even though I've had to take it easy for a little bit.
In conjunction with my Metformin, I've lost almost 4 kg's in 20 days
I was 89.9kg when I started and I weighed myself this morning and I weigh
86.6kg!!

Which is great news
I'm very proud but I still have a bit to go.

Stay tuned!

14.08.2014 - Metformin

So, good news is that, even though my calorie intake is better
(I was diagnosed with hyper glycemia)
I am still managing to lose weight with going back on my Metformin
which was prescribed after wanting to lose weight and to manage my PCOS
even though I only have 1 ovary, doesnt mean that it got better when I had surgery.
There's still cysts.

So, I took some photos this morning just to show you how much Isagenix had made me less bloaty.
And how good I'm starting to look.

Day 7 - Day after cleanse day, SHAKE DAY!

Hello,
So yesterday was a pretty interesting experiment, it showed me how much we are tempted by fast food and how good it smells when it's RIGHT THERE.

I did get sick of the Cleanse for life's every few hours but I made it.
Admittedly I made a bit of a mistake and forgot to take my anti depressants and anti anxiety pills
the evening before the cleanse day and felt really low about the split with the 'boy' I was seeing briefly.

And because I've been on chemotherapy and haven't really done any detoxing or cleansing things since then, it will probably take me a while to do a double cleanse. But it just seems a bit dangerous for me to be not eating much for 2 days.

When it took me 7 months to start eating properly, BY MYSELF, after finishing chemo.

So today was the blessed shake day, I love shake days and I've finally made the shake taste really good,
(not that it didn't taste good in the first place) but I've worked out the perfect ratio of Vanilla and chocolate to make it a light chocolate taste.

So, here are my day 5 and day 7 pictures:

Day 3 - fell down

Today was easier to deal with in terms of the no solids thing, infact I've taught myself that if I want
solids, there's always Isalean Bars, which are beautiful, like nougat snickers.

The shakes are beautiful, though I have learned to mix the chocolate with the vanilla and it takes delicious.

This morning at work we had morning tea, I felt a bit bad about it, but in all honesty I only ate 2 mini sausage rolls and 4 doritos, 2 of those being gluten free with salsa, it's not like I pigged out.

I was good after that with no headaches or anything.
But I had afternoon tea with one of my friends and we had vegetarian nachos.
It was spicy but it sounded soooooo good and tasted good too.

As Loz says though, I always have the chance and the choice to start again,
get back on the wagon and start again.

I keep holding onto my why,
Why I'm doing this.
I'm gonna have to write it all down so everytime I feel like I'm gonna make a bad decision I'll pull it out
and read it over and over again.

My 'Why' is strong, it's sort of one of the best reasons for me to be doing this.

So, I took my photos this morning

Tuesday 5/8 - First day - Shake day!

Today was my first day on Isagenix.
I'm starting off on a Shake day!
I've decided to do option 2, where you take 2 consecutive cleanse days during the week and
then the rest of the week is a shake day.

Went really well today, no headache at all as some people have mentioned on the team page.
Lots more water then I'm used to, which is ok. But I don't know if I'll be able to do it everyday.

I've decided to do cleanse days on the weekend.

I feel ok, so touch wood, I keep at it.
:D

Apart from that, work was ok, I did alot of walking and hit my goal steps pretty quickly.

Thank God it's not very busy.

My Presidents Pak came today!

So, today at about 6:30pm my Isagenix package was delivered to my door,
it was soooo heavy (8kg)
Lauren enrolled me as an associate, which I am very grateful for,
which means if I'd like to make it into a business someday I can,
I'm really excited.

This is what was in my pak:

And I got my own IsaBlender :) So I can blend my shakes and make other cool recipes when I start exploring more.

So I think I'm gonna read some more tonight and maybe either start tomorrow or Wednesday.

Yay!

Saturday - The weekend before starting Isagenix

This last week has been pretty interesting, draining, hectic.
Mainly at work but sometimes at home too.

This week, infact, last Saturday I met up with my former colleague from InTACT
when I was just an apprentice ITO1.

Miss Lauren Jiear, as I knew her then.
Now she is Mrs Lauren Fallce and I still remember her as she was back then but
she has changed of course. As we do after 4-5 years.

Last week I contacted Loz because I really wanna start getting serious about
my weight loss and she introduced me to a product called Isagenix.

It all makes pretty good sense, but of course I was a bit skeptic,
being through cancer and chemotherapy and now being in remission
for a year and 7 months.

But Loz has calmed my questions and I'm actually pretty excited to start my cleansing program very soon.

So, this is my first before pictures, very ashamed that I managed to let myself get this big.
I am 90kg
During my surgery I lost 12 kg because of the tumour and fluid,
I lost another 5 kg because of chemo and my refusal to eat.

In June 2013 I started to get my sense of hunger back and from 62kg, I have gained 28 kg.

So, I've decided to do the 30 day cleansing program first, it may have been a bit pricey but
I don't think I'll regret it.

I'm just really excited to start this program and seems like something I've been looking for, for a while.
I need to lose 12-15kg before January so I can have another procedure to freeze my remaining eggs.
So I can have kids in the future.
I also want a sexy body,
I've always been think during my childhood, but during my teenage / adult years,
I haven't exactly been someone with a hot body.
And I want that.
 I wanna be attractive to my future husband, whoever that may be.
 I don't want him looking at other women and thinking 'God, I wanna do her.'

I want him to be proud of me,
And to myself, My body is a gist from God. I should cherish it and look after it better then I have.

So yeah,
Here's my first photo.

How I feel at 90kg:

I feel very slothic, tired all the time,

No motivation to do a lot of things.

I feel old.

Very excited to start my program soon

:)